What do you think happens after you die? I believe in an afterlife. I don't know when exactly you get there or what exactly it's like. I think I believe in ghosts or spirits. My faith has a lot to do with this, but my logic really hammers the idea home. I can't get my head around lack of existence. I can't fathom being nothing because I don't have a very good concept of nothingness. Is it all black? No, black is something. Is it all white? No, white is something, too. There's an essence that doesn't go away when I'm sleeping or when I'm drunk or ever. When my body dies, that energy will just HAVE to go somewhere else...
Do you believe in heaven? Yes.
Do you believe in hell? I think so.
Do you think you will be judged after you die? Yes, and I know I'll deserve it.
How many people would attend your funeral? This has always bothered me. I'm younger than a large portion of the people I care about, but I don't take remarkably good care of myself. (I'm not very fond of doctors, and I assume I'll die of something that was treatable.) I have no idea who will be there. I don't want to have to live without my family or my best friends, but is it fair to want them to live without me? In any case, I don't think it'll be a huge event, but I don't want to be Eleanor Rigby when I grow up.
Would you rather that people cry or laugh at your funeral? If I had to pick, I guess I'd prefer laughter. There will probably be a bit of both; there always is at those things.
What's better? A shot in the head or downing pills? Both are cowardly and selfish. If I were to be a selfish coward, why not go all the way? I think it would take more chutzpah to pull the trigger, so I'll say downing pills.
What should be written on your tombstone? Here lies Cynth. She was anomolous but thoroughly decent and always just herself.
Would you rather die childless or divorced? Divorced.
Do you want to die in the morning, afternoon, or night? I really don't care.
If you had a million dollars to leave, who would you leave it to? My family, if they needed it; if they had enough, some charity/charities.
What kind of flowers do you want at your funeral? I really, really don't care.
On your deathbed, which moment will you most remember? Hmm, I don't know. It could be something that hasn't happened yet, unless I'm dying tomorrow. I'll probably remember the people who've gone before me and look forward to seeing them again.
Have you ever watched someone die? Yes.
What's the most gruesome death you can imagine? When your mind is aware and your body is helpless: any sort of asphyxiation (suffocation, drowning, buried alive, etc.), ALS, that disease from Awakenings (Parkinson's?), coma-you-know-you're-in...
How often do you think about death? More than weekly, less than daily.
Is fear of dying your number one fear? Probably?
Do you believe in reincarnation? No.
Have you ever wished someone you loved were dead? Yes, but not out of anger or anything like that. Sometimes life can deteriorate so much that it's worse than death. I've prayed very hard for someone's suffering to be over, whatever that meant. Sometimes, it can only mean death.
Do you consider life short or long? It depends on the day, really. Sometimes, life seems fleeting; other times, I feel like there's so much left ahead of me I don't know what to do with it all.
Do you think you have a soul? Yes, absolutely. (See first response)
Assisted suicide for a terminally ill person is: OK.
If you were cremated, where would you like your ashes? Throw them in the ocean or something.
Would you choose to be immortal, if you could be? No, I think that would be awful. I would never get used to knowing that I would see everyone I ever loved die. I couldn't stand to lose EVERYONE. Eventually, I'd just stop making friends and live sad and alone, forever. That's easily a fate worse than death, no matter what you think death is. Yuck.
Wasn't that fun, kids? I feel like having a drink now or, at the very least, some ice cream.