Why am I up? I didn't go to sleep until after 1, yet I'm wide awake and have been since 6:15 or so. Too much going on in my head, I think. Things to do, ideas to play with. I need to buy a new filter for the fish tank. I need to go to the bank. I need to take a shower and get dressed. I need to do the dishes and clean the apartment. I need to get as much of this out of the way as possible by 1:30, when momtastic will be here to pick me up and take me to a graduation party.
My brain has been driving me crazy lately. I wish I could turn it off or slow it down sometimes. If I must analyze all the things I say and do, couldn't I do it before I say and do them, when it might make some kind of difference? I'm hiding out and over-thinking again. These aren't new problems, just annoying ones. I'm spending a lot of time inside my head. Maybe that's just what I need to do right now.
But things are good! I'm very happy, generally speaking. Money is my biggest worry, and even that situation isn't so terribly dire. Work is good. I got to go out to lunch with work people yesterday, and I don't feel I made too poor a showing. Then we all sat around and played Trivial Pursuit (while we worked, of course), and I didn't make too poor a showing there, either. The new guy and I were exchanging quips and veiled references to random things. It's nice to say something you consider clever and have someone laugh right away and respond with something else you consider clever. There's a camaraderie to it; I like that.